Welcome to new york city, it took me 35 years. I always wanted to visit or live here for a couple of months. I'm finally here after visiting almost all of the major cities in the United States. Which wasn't a goal of mine but I'm thankful to have had the opportunity to visit and live all over the country. I've never been outside of the country even though I had a passport and had the opportunity to go to Puerto Rico once, I never had the desire to visit anywhere until I at least saw New York City. I can say that seeing New York City was probably my one and only travel goal. Well I finally made it. About a month after I got here, the whole city shut down and I no longer see the New York City that people have been ranting and raving about for years. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that the strong people of New York would fold like pussies because the news and the government said so. I thought New Yorkers were free thinking people. I've never seen people so scared and in compliance with what the government told them. It's weird to think that the American dream is truly dead because people are scared to leave their houses or willingly quaranting themselves as if healthy people need to be quarantined. I can see how this was a great and inspirational city but now, it's pretty pathetic. Im speaking as an outsider so people can dismiss everything I'm saying, and the way New Yorkers are, they will, and most likely yell their point across in their obnoxious tone. Or is that just their accent. None the less I like this city, I like the diversity, the mixtures of cultures. The tall buildings, the international feel of the whole city. I can say with confidence that new york city is the greatest city in the United States, so I'm very thankful to be here and very excited for the governor or mayor to open back up the city, ive barely tipped the ice berg of what new york City has to offer and I'm very anxious to get my NYC experience on.
Friday, May 8, 2020
Monday, April 27, 2020
35-Alive
We gon die one day, but not today
Happy birthday to me happy birthday to me, its 2020 and I turned 35 this year. I'm very thankful not to be young anymore. I think for me the worst thing about being young was being so dumb and doubting myself because society says you have to be dumb when you're young. Its not the truth. I would say that I was influenced to be very dumb. A lot of times when I was doing "dumb things" I was having the time of my life. I'll take experience any day over book knowledge. To tell you the truth all the book knowledge I learned in school I had to unlearn, that knowledge only became good to pinpoint places in my understanding that I needed to sharpen or correct. In my 30's I took a front line role in what I thought could be the best way for me to help people only to realize that not only do I not care but none of you need help. Looking for direction is the dumbest thing I think I have done with my life. Nothing truly matters and anyone who is looking for direction is really looking for conformation or justification to both I say you don't need. I myself have taken a more animalistic or natural way to live my life, as in animals do what they do. There is no real direction, no real meaning. I decided that I am not here to help anyone, mostly because I can't help anyone. I can probably comfort you on your journey but honestly it doesn't do anything for me. Your life is not supposed to be happy, your life is about experiences. Go experience life, guess what? It might suck, it might kill you, but people die everyday and if things suck you have the opportunity to change it or don't change it. I no longer care, it doesn't make me a bad or good person, it just makes me a person. I'm happy to be older, I'm happy to be where I am in life. And if I die tomorrow, its just another experience for me and you if you feel you need to be effected by it.
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Is you serious?
Skyview Atlanta
Is you serious? A question I pose to all who claim to have a belief system, or some moral background that you would call your up bringing. Normally I would write in the way I would be talking mainily to myself, but in this case because of this question I am asking yourself. The fact is all I see are people being slaves and saying they dont want to be slaves, people saying we don't support police brutality but support the things that are a directly and/or indirectly the causes of what we call police brutality. How about those prisions? Anybody against mass incarnation and still go out there and support these companies that a profiting off the mass kidnapping and enslaving of your brothers and sisters? When I first wanted to write this it was going to mainly be directed toward black folks, more toward the conscious black folks, because I see alot of hypocritical things going on. And I am not one to be looking and judging people but look at yourselves. If the doctrine is so powerful then how come so many who claim to believe fall short? Im not gonna look at you and blame the doctrine, because what you do does not or should not effect my growth or belief. The reason I decided to open it up to everybody is because we all need this talk and this question. People who denounce white supremacy and still support the instutions that are sometimes the foundation of white supremacy. You can not call yourself my friend and be a supporter or contrubituter to white supremacy. Why would you want your friend to go through that? So back to this question "is you serious?". Well are you? Do you believe in something and dont know where it comes from? Do you know what you and it repersents? Do you know the foundation of your belief? Do you believe that facebook is brainwashing and still fall for it everytime? My mom once told me, well she told me alot of times that " when you know better you do better" and as much as I would like not to, I have to agree with her. I can admit that I dont know everything about everything and I do engage in things that might go against my morals and beliefs but I am also active in trying to correct my bad habits, and I'm honest at least with myself in being able to admit that I don't know why I do things or where things come from or if I do know where they come from and what they are all about that I consciously choose to continue doing it despite what I've discovered about whatever it is I'm researching. Im constantly becoming consious of my short coming when it comes to my beliefs and morals. I adapt to making my words match my actions. It is a none stop process, never-ending. I am serious and concious about who I am and who I want to be. I am in the process of become who i want to be by constantly working on who I happen to be. For people who look towards me and read what I say and see my actions, I don't want to fake it. I think it matters if you are a person who influences other to be aware of what you maybe unconsciously creating. If in a sense you are duplicating yourself by influencing people, then wouldn't want to duplicate the best part of yourself? Your actions should tell you and others if you are serious or not. If I can take a moment and look out in to the world and my closer surroundings and try and see the state in which live, it will tell me that ya'll ain't serious and ya'll ain't living the way you claim to living, and ya'll ain't believing what ya'll say ya'll believing because your belief WILL manifest. are you always saying you want a more money or you want to move but won't quit your job or look for a new one or look at housing in the area you want to live?... is you serious? All ya'll pro black, pan african nationalist Gravesites who disrespect black women and some of yall only date outside your race? Is you serious? Marcus, Malcolm or Martin would not approve. You gotta go deep inside yourself and figure out who you are, figure out the way you feel about things and not let outside sources dictate how your supposed to feel or respond to situations. Half of the time yall give the same response to situations that occur. all ya'll sound the same, like someone else's opinion; facebook, the news, your friends who got it from Facebook or some documentary they saw on youtube or netflix. So my question to you and this question is ultimately for you, "is you serious?". If the answer is yes, good for you, I hope to meet you or your kids or someone you influenced one day so that we can have a great conversation. But the answer is no, then you my friend have a choice to make, you can make an effort to be serious about the things you believe in and the things that come out of your mouth or you can just keep faking. By the way if your a mutha facker, stay from around me. Becauase im working on being serious and practicing what I preach, and I don't need you around me distracting me with distractions that are distracting you.
Monday, April 20, 2015
Tricking the Black Man Again: Obama the Black Savorior
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| Pay attention young man |
Image is a powerful thing. For centuries
and centuries governments and empires have used the power of images (propaganda)
to rewrite history and control the perception of the world. Propaganda images
are still being used today right under our noises. Everything we use to tap
into information is used as propaganda, Facebook, cell phones, our TVs, Netflix,
the radio, our music, and especially the news are used to control our thoughts
and reactions. The schools and universities we attend help to control our very
thought process and how we react to our environment. We have all been convinced
to act a certain way, to feel a certain way, to react a certain way, to think a
certain way, to dress a certain way. All my clothes have name brands on them. I’m
sure where ever they made my clothes the people there were exploited and left
in ruin.
One of the worst forms of propaganda is
the news. Yes I say the NEWS. Newspapers and Internet articles are included,
all forms of news are used. The news is the most dangerous because it is perceived
to be truth, actual fact, most times without question. Belief and
perception can cause anyone to do anything they believe is truth. We as a
society have made the news truth. And the news has taken over the truth and
over perception. I know the people in Ferguson MI can attest to the media
reporting but not really reporting. And why won't the media say that ST. LOUIS
has a racial problem instead of just talking about a neighborhood in St. Louis.
Is that a good question to ask about the news? I used to be very entertained by
watching FOX News, especially during Hurricane Katrina. I've known for a long
time that the news was entertainment when I started seeing reruns of the news.
I'd watch it again so I could be entertained again and again. Why are their
reruns of the news with all the events happening every single day? I’ve seen
the new all around the country, local, regional, national, and global. Thank
god for YouTube and news web pages now I get to annoy my friends with all the
great news I've found. It’s believed that what happens in the news happens in
real life, but what happens on the news is actually someone else’s interpretation
of what happen, a view point, a perspective, and a perception. Anyone can tell
a story to an advantage. My momma called it half lying, not telling the whole truth.
I would always be honest but sometimes I wouldn't tell the whole truth because I
was trying to trick my mother into not knowing I did something wrong. I wanted
to control her perception of a situation. This is exactly what the news is
doing and has been doing. If you watch the news, it will have you believe that
we are being terrorized by foreign governments when in fact most of all
revolution that happened in the last 100 years have been countries revolting
against an American oppressor. Not to mention what is happening to the stolen African
people in the United States who has believe that they have “made it” in America
because the president of one of the most profitable businesses in the world is
a black man.
Here we go. We have been doped again and I
myself have fallen for this trick, this ultimate slap in the face to all the
African American leaders that were assassinated by the business known as the
united states government corporation. Lord have mercy on my poor negro soul I
have lived to see the day a black man is president of the most powerful nation
in the world. That was me in 2008. Right before Obama helped bail out the banks
and not the people who were getting their houses taken away by the banks, who
tricked people into buying those houses anyway. From that point on I knew that
Obama was not who he represented... change and me. I thought change meant different
then before. They only difference is his skin color and its racist to notice.
So the world see a black man the represents the stolen Africans. I am a stolen African.
Obama is not a stolen African. His father is from Kenya and he was born an
American. He does not have the same history I have. His great grandparents did
not face the same percussions as mine. He is not a representation of Malcolm X
or Martin Luther King Jr. Who died to have the power his image has. Obama does
not represent me or any of the African Americans who have been surviving on
this continent and to say he does is insulting to everything they stand for. The
legacy of those men will be foreshadowed by the first black president. The
elections in 2008 was the mark of the civil rights movement ending. All the
struggles of the civil rights movement have been achieved by the inauguration of
the first black president. All the wrongs have been righted, because a black
man is equal to a white man in the United States of America. But is that the
truth. Is a black man, a stolen African truly equal to the white man or any
other man for that matter in America? As a black man a stolen African I
can tell you from my own personal experience of being around different races
and cultures in the United States that the black man is not truly equal to
other races in this country. Well documented operations by the United States
government will tell you that the black is definitely not equal nor does the
country want them to be.
While the media
pumps up and confuses us with rights for our sexual perfrences, how are black Americans doing with rights? What about
the women's rights? How are they doing in this country? I don't remember the
gays helping one bit to ending slavery. In fact I’m sure they may have been the
enslaver. Don't make this an attack on gay rights because it’s not. It’s an attack
on the image of Barrack Obama and how it is not what the world and we perceive
it to be. We all need to wake up especially black people and stop supporting a
man because of his image. If we can support a man bigger than his image then
maybe stolen Africans may get the real change and the real hope we deserve and
stop being gunned down in the streets because of the Hollywood imagines that
the public have and the imagines we have for ourselves, because image is a
powerful thing. You should control the images and the perceptions you choose to
believe in.
Sunday, March 1, 2015
This is 30 or The Soul of Hippie Shaun Boss Nigger
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| somewhere over the rainbow, Cali |
So I'm 30 and I guess I can say since I've been 26 I've been
slowly dramatically changing my life and the world (I mean that's how you
change the world, change yourself and there is a better person in the world.). The
direction of my logic and philosophy hasn't changed much. I heard one time that
we are being lied to also I heard that we are masters of our life and universe.
I heard that all we needed was something to tap into this ocean of vibrations
and energy. I heard that we were all born with a way to access this and the
only requirement to achieve this is to believe. I tried all of your
suggestions, I worked a lot of jobs; assemble line, bag groceries, retail,
customer service, FDIC, Veteran Affairs, unemployment, Network Marketing, The
United States Military, I went to school, I moved to do more of everyone's
suggestions. I mean you just get so down and out and disparaged that almost any
suggestion no matter how crazy it might seems just might work. I didn't wanna
die and I didn't want to hate my life and myself for trying to maintain a life
I hated. This is something that all my friends and all my family were/are
doing. I'm not one to follow the crowd so I needed to break this cycle and I
did. Thus enters Hippie Shaun/ Shaun Lamar, Someone who is a master of his life
and the universe around him. I love everyone support but truthfully I believe
in myself. I thank everyone out there who has allowed me to do me without
restraints. I love making good Art that people love and feel ways about it.
Emotions carry a lot of energy and vibrations, so think about that when your
experience art and you feel a strong emotion. No matter what the art is, whether
it’s a painting a news article or even comedy. Talking with one of my comedy
friends we came to the conclusion that if you can offend comedians, you must be
pretty good. I mean I think I’m pretty good, but it's because I believe in
myself and my ability to create awesome shit for ya'll. So this is 30, doing
whatever the fuck I want without many boundaries. I'm down to a small backpack
of belongings and I couldn't be happier. I never worry about losing or having
someone taking something from me. I don't have much else to say. Maybe I'll start
writing again. I don't know, but you can believe that I won't stop doing art.
I'm gonna figure out was to get all this stuff to you. In the mean time some of
my new fans don't know about my old stuff and some of my old fans don't know
about my new stuff. So if I can I’ll at least start promoting the older stuff
mixed with the newer stuff such as; videos, blog post, Podcasts, poetry, and
maybe some audio of my stand up. Alright it's time to end this I love you all who
have love and to the ones that don't love, Fuck you, you really are the
problem, see ya'll <3
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
#SFDope
Today on #SFDope we will have local rap and hip hop artists on the show for preformences and interviews, check out the links to their music
Equipto http://www.accesshiphop.com/store/?label=Solidarity+Records
Legends Live Forever http://legendsliveforever.net/
Johnny Kap https://soundcloud.com/johnny_kap_music
Monk McNizzle http://monkmcnizzle.com/
Soundearth http://soundearth.bandcamp.com/track/cant-stop-the-earth-from-growing
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
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