Just Breath, Be Brave, and have No Regrets

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Happy February!! My favorite month, let’s see you have black history month, my birthday and a host of Aquarius birthdays, Valentine’s day not to mention a couple of my favorite Pisces  are born in February. I’ve decided to start my resolutions this month, I always use January as a buffer zone or a transitional phrase, or a trial run to see if I like and/or can actually do the resolution. Most of them are really goals and not really resolutions, I just want to maximize my success. Another thing I’ve decided to do with my goals this year is to write them in a form of achievements, as if it was January 1, 2014 and I was looking back at 2013 and all that I’ve done that year. I don’t know if it will work but if I think about it as already done and achieved than isn’t that the same as willing it done?, Law of Attraction, it’s also in the bible so I figured it couldn’t hurt. So with all that being said I guess you imagined that this post was going to be about my resolutions?  Or maybe black history month?  I’m actually writing about something different and maybe my theme of this year, which I think will be “No regrets”. Which I rarely ever have them but sometimes I hold back when I know I can go harder. So this year I won’t regret any choices I make, I’ve decided to listen to my heart and be brave. Sometimes in life when we’re faced with a decision we’re overwhelmed and a bit anxious, I know I do. I’ve had a panic attack or two in my time. I just know that if I go by the track record of my life no matter what I’m faced with at the time, no matter what obstacle I’ll have to get over everything will be just fine just like it always has been. I remember one time I was going to get an i.d. made because my license had been suspended. I went through the whole process of filling out the paper work and smiling for my picture and they actually printed my I.D. out. Right before the guy was about to give me my i.d. he stopped and said that the big guy in charge wanted to see me. I really didn’t think anything about it, silly me. I foolishly went to the back of the building (which was packed with police officer) into this guy’s office. When I entered he was on the phone and just pointed for me to sit down. I sat down and the guy who escorted me left and shut the door behind him, still not thinking anything about it I’m just sitting there twiddling my thumbs. He put the phone on speaker phone and when someone answered he told them that they had someone down here and they need to send a county car because he has a warrant for an unpaid ticket. Oh hell, now I’m sweating, mind going a million miles an hour trying to figure out what ticket and how much it was and how the hell am I going to get out of here. My first instinct was to talk, so I started talking and asking a bunch of questions and he wasn’t budging. The only thing that was saving me some time was they didn’t have any squad cars to come get me. So he started asking me question. Questions I didn’t want to answer like; “is someone with you?”, and “how did you get here?”, and “did you know you had a warrant?”. After answering the questions; “No nobody is with me”, “I drove my car it’s outside”, and ”No I didn’t know I had a warrant” he asked me if my license were suspended why the hell was I driving? I didn’t have an answer to give him. He just shook his head and call the county jail again. He told me the ticket was some 200 dollars. I pulled out a wad of cash and was like” look, I have it right here” (I can’t remember why I had all the money on me but I was making moves that day)”Just let me go and I’ll go pay it “this dude was not budging one bit. All I was thinking was I got to get the fuck out of here. I’m thinking up all kind of scenarios, what if I just walk up out of here? How many police did I see on the way coming back here? How many could I fight off and get to the door? Could I make it to my car? How far would I make it out of the parking lot? Will I be on the news tonight? I was looking at the windows like “can I break through that?” I was just canceling all those ideas and was thinking “naw I’m not going to jail, something is about to happen, I can’t go to jail today I got other things to do” all of a sudden it was like the heavens opened and he looked at me and was like “you can go”. I was like “What the fuck?”. He said they aren’t sending anyone to come get you and we don’t have anyone here to take you so just go but you can’t have your i.d., I tried to run up out of there before he changed his mind. He walked with me to the front door and a squad car pulled up and this police officer stepped out and said “Ya’ll called and said ya’ll needed me to take someone to jail” and I stopped walking and looked at him and head guy looked at me and told the police officer “naw”. He let me get in my truck with no license and a warrant and I drive off. I went and paid that ticket, and that’s an example in my life that I know everything will be alright. That wasn’t the first or the last time something like that has happened to me. Over and over again I’ve been in sticky situations and I’ve made it out just fine. I’m very thankful that I didn’t go to jail that day and every other time I didn’t go to jail or didn’t get a ticket, or didn’t get caught, or didn’t die, I’ve done some very foolish things in my life and time after time I’ve gotten second chances so I know everything will be just fine. So when you find yourself in a situation where it doesn’t seem like there’s a way out just stay calm and breathe, be brave and know that everything will be all good. Just believe.

A Voice from the People!!

Hello this is just a little update since I haven’t updated in a while. My plan was to write about my New Year’s goals and I’m still going to do that but this month (January) I have just been trying out my Resolutions. So Feb 1 is the real date that I will start my resolutions. As far as this blog goes I will continue to write and post I have a couple of things that I haven’t posted yet and my plan as a whole was to move this blog in the direction of spirituality, I may change the name, I may not, but look forward to upcoming post about soul mates, past lives, Chakras  crystals, ascension, the afterlife, astral projection, dreams, déjà vu, the law of attraction, astrology, astronomy, incites, agreements and much much more. I hope you all like the direction that I've decided to go in and I look forward to sharing with you 

3...2...1...YAY 2013!!!!

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I thought today is the last day in in 2012. I wanted to do like this huge information dump where I released all this information I’ve been holding on to but I guess time caught up to me and I’ve really only written one post plus I have been working on the other blog I have. I don’t know, maybe you’ve heard of it? “How to Start a Revolution”. There’s my plug for my other work. It’s getting consist hits and I’m pleased with it. I’m really excited to find out exactly what it will become in 2013 as we continue to post and update the blog.

I always love this time of the year because of New Year’s holiday. It’s always a good time to reflect on the past year’s achievement and reevaluate the past years disappointments. I try not to be cliché but I think we all get caught up in the hopes of possibilities of the new year. There’s so much to hope for, it’s almost as if it’s a new beginning. It feels like we can be a new person. At least it feels that way to me. I don’t care if you think I’m cliché, I’m going to do better in 2013. I have goals that already have time limits on them. I wouldn't call them resolutions but I’m going to achieve them and work on them. I’m excited about 2013. I was born on the 13^th, so that should mean something, right? My main goal for the year and every year is to work on myself and not limit my possibilities by small minded thinking. I’m going to work on not criticizing my friends, because I don’t think it helps when people are on their journey in life. Especially if they didn't ask, I guess there is a point when you see your friend going in a direction where we would perceive as bad but I don’t think if it’s a deadly direction than we shouldn't give our two cents about it. We’re here to support our people, even if that means we can’t see their vision, we should just trust that they believe it and encourage them to greatness. As far as this blog goes I don’t have any plans in stopping. It may slow down a bit with me being back in school and working on other project but I don’t plan on stopping this blog. However I think in the new year I may be getting more metaphysical with topics about; balancing your energies, Chakras  Soul mates, Past lives, Astro-projections, Astrology, and other stuff relating to those topics. I’m not sure if those are subject that you all will be interested in but that is the direction my life is headed and these are the subjects that I’m increasingly being attracted and attached to and I enjoy talking about these subjects. I look forward to doing some more great things in 2013. I hope you all had a wonderful year and I hope next year will be more abundant and loving to you. With everlasting and unconditional love Happy New Year!!!

Last picture i'll take this year 2012

Like it's the End of the World

I couldn't resist writing about this because I love history and the Ancient world and science fiction and New Age stuff. So there’s this Mayan calendar that’s about end, or rather start a new cycle on December 21, 2012. I guess I could tell you what I think, but who really cares if I think the poles are going to shift causing a flood to rival the floor that all the ancient cultures wrote about, or who cares if I believe an asteroid is coming or a rouge planet is coming the size of earth that will smash into our earth and case another Ice Age or if I believe a solar flare is going to cause all of our electronics to no longer function. I’m not telling you I believe in any of that, and I’m not telling you if I don’t believe in any of that, just know that I have done my research and I’m confident in what I do believe in. I would encourage you to do the same if you’re interested. One way or another, whatever is coming, is coming and a simple writer such as myself can’t do anything about it. So I’m cool whatever happens or doesn't happen.

For the past couple of week my friends and I have been discussing post-apocalyptic scenario. Question like how long would you make it if you this were to happen or if that were to happen. It got me thinking about the movie Castaway (also it came on TV) where a guy is stranded on an island and has to survive to the best of his ability. And it got me thinking about the TV show Lost, which was about a plane crashing on an island and they had to start over and survive. Lost was nothing like castaway and they weren’t alone on the island, sigh, I miss lost, what a great television show. So the question came up what would be the hardest thing to deal with and what would you miss the most? I just starting thinking and pondering and I just blurted out that I would be sad that I wouldn’t remember the words to my favorite songs or just songs in general. I mean of course the obvious; you’d miss your family, friends, electricity, hot showers and soap, sex, maybe driving, probably computers and what not. But I think it would break my heart to wake up one morning with a tune in my head, which is something that often happens, and not remember the exact words that went with it. I guess music plays a pretty big role in my life. I mean I’m constantly listening to it, and constantly talking about it. I guess if the end of the world happens then music would be something that I miss the most.

Gayerific

Our difference should only be something that we use to experience life with one another. I’m not talking about the color of our skin or our race, which is a constant subject in our country. I mean things like we should go see a movie together because we both like movies or we should go sky diving together because we both like to jump out of the sky. I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t promoted my race and skin color, because I have. At this point I’m wondering if I would have as much pride or feel the need to openly express if my culture and past hadn’t been ripped from existence. With this country founded on the basis of freedom, because they were tired of being persecuted by England, you’d wonder how United became so divided. It’s seems to be a trend, it’s almost as if there has to be something bad if America the beautiful is to remain good. It’s easy to follow the trail of racism in America; there was a big war about it, followed by a history of discrimination and segregation attempts. That is the history of the division of black Americans. You can trace back all other races including religious beliefs as well. If fighting for race and real religious freedom wasn’t enough, America has decided to attack who we are and what we love. Yes I’m talking about our sexual preference and who we chose to love. Admittedly I’ve never been gay so I couldn’t tell you about my experiences with coming out to my parents and dealing with my sexuality because I don’t have any of those experiences. I can only imagine how one would feel to have to go through something that is naturally you and the world seems to hate. I personality don’t understand what the fuss is about. I would say it’s not my fight but some of my closest friends are gay, and their fight is always my fight. So let’s talk about it.

This is the way I see it; spirit has no gender and it’s true that inside of us we are both male and female or rather feminine and masculine. I believe in soul mates as I’ve stated time and time again, a soul doesn’t have a sexual preference because there is no gender in spirit. That goes the same for skin color and religious belief. You’re born what you are and it cannot be changed. You can try and suppress it but you will be much happier if you chose to live what you are instead of what some made up rule says you should be. Feeling are real I don’t chose to be jealous I just get jealous. I don’t chose to be upset about something I just get upset about something. True the way I handle that feeling is important but the actually feeling itself is out of my control. Love should not be regulated and people should not have to hide who they are. Everyone should be treated with love and respect. If there’s a rule/law that gay people can’t get married than no one should be able to get married. It’s selfish to think otherwise in a united country. We outta be ashamed of ourselves to keep letting these differences divide us. When can we focus on something other than differences? Can we focus on what we have in common? There’s an unseen agenda that is happening and it’s going unnoticed because whoever’s agenda it is keeps pulling rabbits of hats and we keep looking at the rabbit and go man where did that rabbit come from? When it isn’t even about the rabbit, it’s just to distract us from the next trick

And another thing the opposite of Gay is not straight or normal. You’re either homosexual or heterosexual. We talk so destructive to each other and we shouldn't  There are powers in words and we should all watch what we label ourselves and others.

Namaste'

A scene from the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" where Joel says to himself "If only i could meet someone new" not knowing that the person he wanted to meet was a person that he had already known before <3

Namaste': The God in me recognizes the God in you

I don’t profess to be anything other than what I am. I see the world as I see it and if that’s different from the way others see it I’m perfectly fine with that. I don’t have all the answers and I’m not even sure if the answers I know are the correct ones. I find that one only has to believe something to be true for it to be true. (What you believe is the truth andtruth is a lie) I experience life just like everyone does, I’ve just decided to tell people about my experiences and what I’ve come to learn about myself and life as I see it. I love that people are inspired by the things I've written and done in my life as I am inspired by everyone I meet. I love to hear about people’s lives, how they've conquered fears and climbed over obstacles, how they’ve fallen in and out of love, how they've belonged and related. It’s all beautiful to me, life is beautiful to me. This is how I see life.

I see life as a flow of perfect energy, always pushing and pulling. I see us as spirits in a human body. I believe our spirits are eternal as energy can never be destroyed. Our spirits are energy. I believe we are always connected to the source, God. God is us as he (Not referring to a gender) is everything. I see our lives as being perfect. Whatever our individual purpose maybe in this life our spirit is always going towards that direction. I believe that our life and energy is at all times is in perfect balance with our purpose. I believe that our energies attract one another to complete a need that has to be met, or a lesson that has to be learned or taught. Even though we may not perceive it to be true I believe that in every interaction or relationship we are equally fulfilling one another’s need. I don’t believe in coincidences, our personalities and attributes are just for us to recognize each other in our physical bodies. Spirit is our true nature and we can feel each other without ever seeing each other, that’s what we call vibes or vibration. In this dimension everything is vibrating. Just as a fish is in water we are surrounded by vibration. I believe that this is how the law of attraction works. Our thoughts (vibration) are sent out and we get what we attract weather negative or positive. I don’t know any of what I said to be facts nor am I trying to convert you into my way of thinking, I’m just saying what I believe today. Tomorrow I may believe something else.

Belief is important in our lives it’s what guides us and helps us make our decisions. I think it is very important to know what you believe in, to know your own process of how you make decisions. I don’t have it figured out by far but at the rate I’m learning new things I’ll be learning for life times to come. I’m thankful to be alive, I’m thankful to be able to have experiences, I’m thankful for every person I meet and have ever come across. At the end of the day you are human being and your trying to navigate through this world just like I am, and who am I to judge your journey. I hope I get to hear your story someday, if not I love you just the same. If I can give some advice it would be, follow your heart you can’t go wrong, God is in there. He may need you to walk through the fire to get you to see your own light because some people, who are stubborn like me, need that. So follow your heart and love is the answer.

Namaste'

She Hate Me: American Bastards at the Party

I was born I Omaha Nebraska, I lived there for about 6 or 7 years until me and my twin sister were adopted and later moved to the heart of Dixie, the great state of Alabama. In Nebraska we were basically the black kids at school, this meaning it was a mostly white school. At that young age in the school I attended I didn’t know the difference between black and white. Yes, I can remember that I liked black girls but I guess I was just born with that in me (no complaints). When we moved to Alabama I was exposed to racism almost immediately. I’m sure it was part of the welcoming care package when a little white boy told me “Life is like a box of jelly beans no one likes the black ones”. Standing there with my mouth open I didn’t understand what was happening. I had a very proper accent because of the schooling I was exposed to in Nebraska; kids would ignorantly tease me by calling me “white boy”. This also confused me because up untill this point in my life I was the blackest person I knew. Boy did I get a huge shocking dose of reality of how my life would be for the next 15 some odd years living in Montgomery Alabama, whose seals states that they are the birth place of the civil rights movement but also states it is the cradle of the confederacy

Go figure that a cities objectives and conflicts are stated directly on its seal as if to say we are proud to be the birth place of the civil rights movement but we also were an important part of the reason for the civil rights movement. How does a city of predominantly black people support an intuition that divided a country over the right to hold another race of human beings as property? And we can argue all day (and some of you will and have) as to what reasons the confederacy really was about but when it comes down to it, it was about free labor (money). Some of the laws in America can be traced back to have a very racial history as far as it’s reasoning of even being thought about to be a law. This day and age is different though, Am I right? Racism is dead, right? I mean we have a black president, right? The days of being discriminated because of  the color of our skin is dead right? You don’t have to look very hard to find that not to be true. I don’t have much concern for other countries troubles today because I see my brothers and sisters struggling. My brothers and sisters are dying and getting kidnapped by the government for trying to make ends meet, for trying to just get the basic requirements of life met. Yeah it’s sad to hear about Africa and Haiti and Mexico and Egypt, and Libya, and other nations but I can’t begin to lift a helping hand for them when I see what is going on all around me.

The results of the elections surprised a lot of people, not just because Obama won, but because how Americans reacted when he won. People were exposing their little stupid racist heads with no fear. Not only showing disrespect for the president but for black people in general. I was not surprised because I grow up with racism is my face; I can spot a racist 20 miles away. I’m a very good judge of character, I see people as they really are. It scares people for me to know things about them that they barely know about themselves, it scares me too. I’ve (well we’ve) sat back and took a beating while racism has run rampant. People don’t care anymore they want you to know how angry they are, they want you to know how they want black people to be slaves again not even knowing that they themselves are slaves to a government that hates the people. And no I’m not talking about the Obama administration; I’m talking about the system as a whole. If you think racism is the problem your severely mistaken and blind to what is really going on in America. We are sleep and its time to wake the fuck up. Knowledge truly is power, it always has been. Get educated and I don’t mean the systems education which is geared to keep you blind by filling your heads with lies telling you that America is in these other countries to establish democracy and stabilize the people so they can have a better life by bombing and killing it’s people, and then when one of our people gets killed, we as Americans are all in an up roar over the country that killed an America who was promoting peace with a gun (Not to justify any of it). You don’t promote peace with violence. You can’t start a foundation of peace with war. How is that supposed to work? I’ll admit I got off subject a little bit, I apologize for my government if anyone has lost a friend or family member in the wars we continue to engage in and support. It’s time to wake up and see what is really going on in the world, in the country, in your own community, in yourself. Don’t you realize you are love itself? Don’t you realize that we together make this reality? The world is the collective reality of who we are as individual people. Turn off the chip in your brain; get rid of the plant that has grown because of the seed that was planted in us long ago by the things we learned in school and from our parents and was nurtured by our friends and the media and entertainment. I’m disappointed in what we have become, when did we become so weak hearted? I remember when I was little and I heard about the American dream I was excited thinking that it was something that I can obtain. But it was never for people like me, it was never for people I grow up with, black or white. It was for people like Mitt Romney and Donald Trump and they keep us distracted with stupid things like race and  gas prices and other things that don’t matter while the continue to tell us what we don’t deserve and continue taking money from the working class who is keep America running. I’m going to stop it right here, me and another writer friend of mine are seriously thinking of starting a new blog where well discuss politics and issues that affect us all as the people of the United States of America. If you would like to join and or help just email me and I’ll give you more details, it’s time to wake up

Shaun Lamar

DforDramatic@gamil.com