September 14, 2012 Exhibit A: Mated at the Soul

Question: How much are you willing to give up for the pursuit of your soul mate? Your job? Your lifestyle? How much is true happiness worth? I mean saying that your soul mate brings you happiness Or at least contributes to it. You might be miserable. Who knows that maybe what you’re used to? And who am I to say what love is to you. But Before I start this, (Which has already started), I want to ask you, what do you believe in? Do you believe in past lives? What do you believe happens when we die? I have to admit I actually believe in past lives. I believe that not only have we been here before, but we will be here again, and again. I believe in soul mates and that would be the reason for love at first sight. We’ve met each other before rather we are soul mates and spent a life time madly in love and we just remember that eternal love or we have been trying and trying to make it work, life time after life time. It makes sense to me. Rather you believe it or not I think the discussion is a valid question. I know I’m not the only person who has been mesmerized by another person who seems to know all the right things to say, who seems to do all the wrong things that seem to be all the right things. Love is a tricky subject and soul mates are an even tricker subject. I believe in soul mates, not just love soul mates but friends and family soul mates. I believe we belong to a soul group. And in our life times we” run these streets” with them. Personally my best friend, I can’t explain why we are BEST friends but we just work well together. I’ve had people come and go, but there are some people who will always be around no matter if I talk to them every day or once a month or even once a year. I know that the Internet has provided a way for us to connect to each other’s life in a way we haven’t been able to before in the past. But then again who are we to say that’s the truth. As we’re finding out every day, or at least I am, history has been wrong about so much. It seems like they are correcting themselves every day about a subject that they used to be experts about. But that’s another post. This one is about soul mates. I’d like to think and believe that we all have soul mates and a plan for our lives in which we have the opportunity to at least meet our soul mates. Regardless of if we’re supposed to be together in this life time or not. Eternity is a long to time. It’s ever, not forever. All I’m asking you to think about is what are you willing to sacrifice for a chance at your one and only true love soul mate? Truth: I’d do a lot. Maybe you can consider me a sucker for love but I’ve never regret just giving it a try. I’d rather she said “I’m just not feeling you” than me saying “well I never tried”. And that goes for all aspects of my life. I can’t respect wanting change but never striving to change. All I want to know is do you believe in Soul mates?  And to tell you the truth I feel sorry if you’ve never felt love on the level of saying someone is your soulmate.

September 4th 2012- If i Found 1000 Pounds

Greeting all.

This is a post just to show my appreciation for the loyalty and tremendous support I've gotten for this blog. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for accepting me as I am. This blog started as a way for me to get some of the craziness out of my head. In the beginning it was a secret and some people told me I should share it with the world. I took their advice and I have reached 1000 views. I’m proud of myself for sticking with this. I went from about 2 – 11 views a month to last month 130 on an off month. Since May my view count has been increasing every month. Thank you to my readers in America, Russia, Germany, India and the UK. Series III will start as planned in November. The biggest difference is that I will be adding a picture to every post as I do a little photography.  There will definitely be longer post for your enjoyment. And if you have suggestions I would love to hear them. I realized that I have never given out my contact information so that is something I will include as well. I want to thank you all again for reading, it really means a lot to me. If I never get to meet you , shake your hand, or laugh with you I still want you to know that even though I don’t know you… I love you and I wish you the very best.

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Making Love Underneath the Cherry Leaves

-Atlanta high noon-

When I was 19 I started working at a factory in Montgomery Alabama. Before that I worked at a grocery store on an Air Force base. Before that, the majority of my interaction with people where that of people in my age group, we mostly talked about college, who broke up, who hooked up with who, and life plans, nothing too vulgar or inappropriate . Well I mean we didn't have the most mature conversations but most of it was innocent. When I began working at the factory that was the first time I was around older people all the time. I was the youngest, my friend was a year older and the next age was 28 or 29. Most of everybody else was from the age range of 30-40. Needless to say I got an eye opener on life and people in general. This was the first time I was around people from diverse back grounds who didn't have to censor themselves because of their surroundings.  I was around people who not only celebrated but expected adultery. I was odd because I still had this idea that people are good and relationships and marriages were something to be respected. I was shocked to find out that all the adults did was talk about sex. The things I was exposed to in that plant at that age. I said all that because out of all the post and subjects I've discussed on this blog, never have I once wrote a post about sex. It didn't hit me until recently when I was thinking about relationships and sex. I still have the same view of sex I did when I was younger.  I thought that it might change who I was being exposed to the vulgarity that people talked about sex. I must admit that I have been a willing participated in these dirty talks. I am a very good “Shit talker” and frankly can back my shit up. I was taught by the bests, or so they claim to have been. But if I believed them doesn't it make it just as so?

So this post is about sex. What do I think about it? To be honest I’m conflicted to the serious implications of sex. My morals tell me that you should have sex only after your married and with one person for the rest of your life. However my huMAN (Notice the capitalization of man) nature wants me to put my penis in everything I can see. Free Love, I could get with it. My lines about sex are so undefined that I myself choose to practice abstains. I won’t say that I’m waiting for marriage but I’m at least waiting until I’m in a steady relationship built on trust. There is one thing I am definite about when it comes to sex and that is if I don’t trust you I damn sure will not have sex with you. Sex does mean a lot. We all try and say “oh it doesn’t mean anything it’s just sex”, but I can say for myself sex is a big deal. And to tell you the truth, by the way we all talk about it, I know it means a lot to you to. Okay this is probably the part where I lose some of you and maybe some of you will get to judging me but this is something that I want to write and me telling you my opinion on this subject may be the only real reason I decided to make this post about sex. When it comes to sex it’s deeper than mashing our sex organs together. I’m not a virgin by far. I’ve had sex a quite a few times. Not particularly with a lot of women but constantly when I was having sex. Sex to me is mental. I like to have great sex. That sex when you feel connected before even connecting (did you see what I did there?). That sex when you feel as if you’re the only two people left on the planet. Have any of you ever had that kind of sex? And some might just call it making love but whatever you call it, the connection is deeper than your sex organs being satisfied.  It’s almost as if we are uploading and downloading information with that physical connects. I can remember most of my sexually experiences because my mind is always in it. I can’t seem to ever turn that off. I’m always wanting to please more and more. I’ve been disappointed before and I’ve had regular sex where we are like robots doing the motions that bring us to scarifications or lack thereof. Yawn, that sex is boring and not worth it to me. I want our souls to connect. I want it to feel like our souls have been missing one another’s soul every time we connect. Have I lost you yet? Do you think my bar is too high? Do you think its lame? Do you think it’s beautiful? Regardless this is something I desire to have in my life again. Yes I like to fuck until my limbs feel as if they are no longer a part of me, but that’s not what I’m talking about here. I’m talking about something deeper. Okay that’s basically what I have to say about sex for now. I will be making more post about sex in the future as I feel that this is the start of a beautiful beginning of a discussion on sex and all sex related subject matters i.e. porn, prostitutes, male whores, and maybe rape. I have a lot to say so continue coming back and reading.