We gon die one day, but not today
Happy birthday to me happy birthday to me, its 2020 and I turned 35 this year. I'm very thankful not to be young anymore. I think for me the worst thing about being young was being so dumb and doubting myself because society says you have to be dumb when you're young. Its not the truth. I would say that I was influenced to be very dumb. A lot of times when I was doing "dumb things" I was having the time of my life. I'll take experience any day over book knowledge. To tell you the truth all the book knowledge I learned in school I had to unlearn, that knowledge only became good to pinpoint places in my understanding that I needed to sharpen or correct. In my 30's I took a front line role in what I thought could be the best way for me to help people only to realize that not only do I not care but none of you need help. Looking for direction is the dumbest thing I think I have done with my life. Nothing truly matters and anyone who is looking for direction is really looking for conformation or justification to both I say you don't need. I myself have taken a more animalistic or natural way to live my life, as in animals do what they do. There is no real direction, no real meaning. I decided that I am not here to help anyone, mostly because I can't help anyone. I can probably comfort you on your journey but honestly it doesn't do anything for me. Your life is not supposed to be happy, your life is about experiences. Go experience life, guess what? It might suck, it might kill you, but people die everyday and if things suck you have the opportunity to change it or don't change it. I no longer care, it doesn't make me a bad or good person, it just makes me a person. I'm happy to be older, I'm happy to be where I am in life. And if I die tomorrow, its just another experience for me and you if you feel you need to be effected by it.
