35 YEARS TO SEE NEW YORK -562020

Welcome to new york city, it took me 35 years. I always wanted to visit or live here for a couple of months. I'm finally here after visiting almost all of the major cities in the United States. Which wasn't a goal of mine but I'm thankful to have had the opportunity to visit and live all over the country. I've never been outside of the country even though I had a passport and had the opportunity to go to Puerto Rico once, I never had the desire to visit anywhere until I at least saw New York City. I can say that seeing New York City was probably my one and only travel goal. Well I finally made it. About a month after I got here, the whole city shut down and I no longer see the New York City that people have been ranting and raving about for years. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that the strong people of New York would fold like pussies because the news and the government said so. I thought New Yorkers were free thinking people. I've never seen people so scared and in compliance with what the government told them. It's weird to think that the American dream is truly dead because people are scared to leave their houses or willingly quaranting themselves as if healthy people need to be quarantined. I can see how this was a great and inspirational city but now, it's pretty pathetic. Im speaking as an outsider so people can dismiss everything I'm saying, and the way New Yorkers are, they will, and most likely yell their point across in their obnoxious tone. Or is that just their accent. None the less I like this city, I like the diversity, the mixtures of cultures. The tall buildings, the international feel of the whole city. I can say with confidence that new york city is the greatest city in the United States, so I'm very thankful to be here and very excited for the governor or mayor to open back up the city, ive barely tipped the ice berg of what new york City has to offer and I'm very anxious to get my NYC experience on.

35-Alive

We gon die one day, but not today

Happy birthday to me happy birthday to me, its 2020 and I turned 35 this year. I'm very thankful not to be young anymore. I think for me the worst thing about being young was being so dumb and doubting myself because society says you have to be dumb when you're young. Its not the truth. I would say that I was influenced to be very dumb. A lot of times when I was doing "dumb things" I was having the time of my life. I'll take experience any day over book knowledge. To tell you the truth all the book knowledge I learned in school I had to unlearn, that knowledge only became good to pinpoint places in my understanding that I needed to sharpen or correct. In my 30's I took a front line role in what I thought could be the best way for me to help people only to realize that not only do I not care but none of you need help. Looking for direction is the dumbest thing I think I have done with my life. Nothing truly matters and anyone who is looking for direction is really looking for conformation or justification to both I say you don't need. I myself have taken a more animalistic or natural way to live my life, as in animals do what they do. There is no real direction, no real meaning. I decided that I am not here to help anyone, mostly because I can't help anyone. I can probably comfort you on your journey but honestly it doesn't do anything for me. Your life is not supposed to be happy, your life is about experiences. Go experience life, guess what? It might suck, it might kill you, but people die everyday and if things suck you have the opportunity to change it or don't change it. I no longer care, it doesn't make me a bad or good person, it just makes me a person. I'm happy to be older, I'm happy to be where I am in life. And if I die tomorrow, its just another experience for me and you if you feel you need to be effected by it.