God Like Me

I don’t know how to start this off and maybe I’m premature in this thought. So I’ll just write and see what comes out of it. I heard a concept that cities are living organisms. The consideration of this idea has sent a tidal wave of thoughts and other concepts my way, mixing with that thinks I believe and know. I guess you can say my mind was blown. My mind went in to overdrive and I just keep thinking and adding and coming up with more ideas and more concepts. Would you like to know some of these things that have popped into my mind? Of course you do. Well one concept is that if cities are living organisms wouldn’t that make us cells? And every interaction and reaction affects the organism as cells in our own bodies affect us. If a city is a body wouldn’t we (the people living in the cities) be the blood cells? If we take a step back and consider a city as a human body, isn’t it true that some people don’t get along? Some people even fight. Other humans love each other; it’s the relationship I’m talking about. Consider the universe as cell or a blood cell. The possibility is endless if you consider that what happens on earth affect the universe as a whole and not just the earth. The idea of oneness and the collective has a whole new meaning.

Thought/Idea/Concept #2: We are Gods. Now before I start I just want to say this is an idea or a thought and if you feel offended it’s your own fault because this is not an attack or an attempt of conversion it’s just an idea to be considered, if you dismiss it immediately that is fine as well. With all my searching and studying what this life is supposed to be I’ve come into a boat load of information. This information has changed the way I see the world and the things I believe. It has been a long road to be at the point of understanding and openness that I am today and when I started (unknowingly) I had not the slightest idea that I would be where I am and I would believe what I believe. A while back one of my friends was telling me about these mind blowing questions that one of her friend had about god. At the time I just couldn’t imagine what kind of mind blowing questions you could really ask about god. So I asked not knowing what I was going to get. They responded by saying something like “What if god is a beginning god?” and “What if god doesn’t know what his is doing?”. I’m totally paraphrasing what they said, I’m really just trying to convey the idea that the god we look to for answers may not have the answers and that he may make mistakes. At the time I’m not sure if I believed in god to that effect so verbally I may have not given much contemplation to it. To tell you the truth, it was way over my head, but I never forgot it, maybe because it was just so weird to me to think that god could be like us. Even though I think we are makers of our universe and we are all one, I had old concepts that I learned about god, that he is a separate entity from us. The bible clearly says as well as all religious intuitions that god is everything, that doesn’t exclude my little dumb understanding of what I think is Shaun, my consciousness. If you believe in past lives and that your soul is eternal that means you could possibly believe that we built the pyramids and crucified Jesus and invented fire and lived through the stone and Ice age, but what about before that? If we are eternal doesn’t that mean we’ve always existed? My soul was not born on February 13 1985 in Omaha Nebraska, that’s when this body was born into this world. As far as I know we were (and still are) the animals, dinosaurs, the fish, the first fish to walk on land, the little sea creatures that look like ribs that they found fossilized in stones from a million years ago, we are the first cells and the big bang and star dust and all that other galactic shit that has been around before there was an earth and milky way. All I’m saying is that the reason given that we come back lifetime after lifetime is for the perfection of the spirit. Which leads me to the concept and idea that maybe, just maybe, we are being groomed to be gods and our consciousness (soul) will have its own creation one day. Maybe a billion trillion zillion years from now but none the less maybe it’s true. I believe in a spirit world and I believe in aliens that there are other worlds and creations out there. I think it’s a little silly to look up at the sky at night and see all those stars (Suns) out there and come to the conclusion that we are the only thing that exists ever. But if you don’t believe that we are souls in human bodies and that we are infinite than how can you even consider the idea of you being a god one day? Or now for that matter. Isn’t said that time is an illusion? As I said before this is just an idea or a concept that came to my mind, not saying that this is the truth and who says that there has to be one truth. Could it be possible to exist every time someone thinks about you? What’s the difference in experiencing something in a dream and experiencing it in real life? To your brain the answer is nothing. That should put a damper on what you previse as reality

Thought/Idea/Concept #3: The idea that synthetic and man-made is unnatural, human beings are natural, we grow we live we interact our existence matters because we affect the world. I thought about consciousness being able to bring back things that are extinct, like in the movie Jurassic Park. You know that we are headed in that direction right? Everything is just a chromosome and molecule away from each other right? It won’t be long before we are able to see animals that have long past and be able to eat fruit that we never knew existed before. If cities look like organisms and everything is accidentally designed by the golden ratio, which is the same ratio that everything not manmade is subject to it, wouldn’t it seem that synthetic is actually natural. It would seem that everything is in divine order, which in fact it is.

After getting all that out I am exhausted, I guess I needed to get that out because my mind was racing. I think I have more thought/Ideas/concepts but they will have to wait for another day. Tomorrow is my birthday so this may come after I write something about that whole thing. I hope you enjoyed this and maybe I have put something on your mind that you may consider and think about later my only advice is  be careful and be open to the possibilities that your mind can take you. P.S. none of this was drug induced lol

Mirror's Edge

I started to write a fairy tale that is my life, I wanted to name it honestly honesty, as in this is my real life as I see it right now. It was hard to write but I couldn't figure out why. Most of the time when I write these post seem to write themselves, I just put the words on the paper. Instead of trying to force an idea I’ll just write what is on my mind. For the past few weeks I have studying and looking at different lectures on youtube, Yeah I nerd out sometimes, but I don’t have a job and school is not an option right now so  I have to keep up the brain activity the best way I can. Most of the lectures have been about life and the way we precise it. I’m one of the first people the quickly yell about the law of attraction and quantum physics, unbeknownst to myself, these ideas and concepts have been slowly introducing and integrating themselves into my life. When I hear things now I understand them almost immediately because I’ve heard parts of it before, it’s crazy how life steers you a direction and us being oblivious look up and wonder how we got where we are. I feel like I’m in the movie “Revolver” where the main character Jake Green (Played by Jason Statham) applies this formula, these rules or guideline (the ultimate con) to his life and becomes everything he wanted. But before he could become who he was supposed to be he had to gain success in his mind only to lose it just to see what he was really supposed to become. If you’ve never seen it, go check it out, it has Andre3000 and it discusses the Ego in a since of it being a separate entity from your true self, which I believe to be true in some aspect. These past couple of weeks the physical has been breaking down to me and I have been able to see the spiritual side of things. This information has changed my perception of life and the direction my life is actually going in. I realize that we may reincarnate but I will never be a Shaun Lamar again. In that sense “YOLA” has a truer meaning to me. Knowing this fact, I will never be “Me” again, should take away all my fears and allow me to take more risk. Not stupid risks but risks that where before I was doubting myself and having an unrealistic expectation. I suffer from the “It can’t happen to/for me” disease, which is self-defeating before I even try. I guarantee that I’ve miss 100% of the shots I didn’t take. I’d get anxiety over decisions that I needed to make, not realizing that what I was anxious about wasn’t even real, the scenarios that I dreamed up in my head were not even reality. I can’t tell the future all I can do is speculate and in that since I should have no expectations. Most of the time I’m doing something for the first time and there is no way to know how something would turn out anyway. It is kind of arrogant of me to think that my life can’t be changed, that certain events can’t go my way. The truth is with this thinking nothing will go my way. At every given time our life is perfect, even in destruction it is a balancing of our energy pushing and pulling at all times. We are attracting our lives and we get exactly what we want no matter how conscious we are of it. The law of attraction is more than just wishful thinking; it’s more than just having a positive attitude, it’s truly believing in yourself and God (if you believe in god) and the process of life. We created this world and everything in it. It’s perfect and there is no reason to ever think that it will not be alright.

It's My Birthday

Email I got this morning... <3

Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu,

Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu,

Happy Birrrrthday Dear Shaun,

Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu!

A few years back, not so long ago, heaven and earth erupted into a major celebration with the news of your impending adventure into this very time and space. You see, someone like Shaun Darden doesn't come along all that often. In fact, there's never been a single one like you, nor is there ever ANY possibility that another will come again. You're an Angel among us. Someone, whose eyes see what no others will EVER see, whose ears hear what no others will EVER hear, and whose perspective and feelings will NEVER, ever be duplicated. Without YOU, the Universe, and ALL THAT IS, would be sadly less than it is.

Quite simply:

You're the kind of person, Shaun,

Who's hard to forget,

A one-in-a-million

To the people you've met.

Your friends are as varied

As the places you go,

And they all want to tell you

In case you don't know:

That you make a big difference

In the lives that you touch,

By taking so little

And giving so much!

Shaun, you are so AWESOME! For your birthday, friends and angels from every corner of the Universe, including buddies you didn't know you had, will be with you to wish you the HAPPIEST of days and an exciting new year in time and space. You won't be alone!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Shaun!

Considering a Truth

72 days for freedom (Atlanta 2012)

      

       There is a way that we believe the Universe works that is wrong. This way has been passed down from generation to generation, From family to family, from continent to continent. How do I know it’s wrong? Because of the evidence against it. This one way that we think the universe works puts us in a helpless state, having us to believe that we have no effect on our lives, our destiny and the world in general, that we are the subject to the will of “it is what it is”. The truth is we are creators of our destiny, we are creators of our lives and we are creators of this world. That doesn't cancel out god in the instance that you believe there is a God. I believe in a divine creator or a master creator however that fact has nothing to do with anything unless you consider that my thoughts, what I believe in, along with your thoughts, what you believe in help shape or create the future. We are masters of this world and we don’t know it. Our lives can be so much richer and be more fulfilling if we just believe that we can and are shaping this world how it is. Instead of giving our power and control away to bad ideas, bad people, bad beliefs, and bad perceptions, we can keep our power and use our collective energy to shape a better experience for everyone on earth. The blockage or absence of this truth that we are divine ourselves is the reason we live in turmoil and destruction. It’s not an accident, there is a plan in order, but this plan is dependent on what we believe, our perception on how the universe works. There have been countless studies and books written that confirms that we are these entities of energy and what we put out in what we believe is how the world is. That’s where it starts by believing. It’s a will know fact that we are not these human bodies; we are not even the embodiment of these human bodies. There is such thing as a higher conscious and a higher self. There is a world that is deep in the memory of everyone that lives and everyone that has ever lived, matter of fact we are everyone that has ever lived. Anyone who has had a near death experience will attest to the fact that we are in fact immortal, that we go on existing after a physical death. It’s written about in ever religion and every tradition and “myth”. I use the word myth loosely because what we believe is truth and myth has it’s connotations with disbelief and skepticism.

Immortality

                Buddhism

The Self is the Lord of Self… When a man subdues well his self, he will find a Lord very difficult to find… knowing that his body is like froth, knowing that its nature is that of a mirage, the disciple passes untouched by death… he in whom the desire for the Ineffable has anisen, whose mind is permeated by that desire, whose thoughts are not distracted by lower desires, he is named “Bound upstream”

                Christianity

That the dead are raised to life again shown by Moses himself in the story of the burning bush, when calls the lord, “The God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob,” God is not God of the dead but if the living; for him we all are alive.

You are gods. Those are called gods to whom the word of God was delivered… no one who is alive and has faith shall ever die

Hinduism

That knowledge which though the soul is realization of both the known and the knower is… wisdom… Whenever anything is produced, it is due to the union of the body and the soul. The deluded do not see the spirit when it quitteth or remains in the body.

Deep within abides another life, not like the life of the sense, escaping sight, unchanging. This endures when all created things have passed away

The individual soul is nothing else in essence than universal soul… Human beings all are as head, arms, trunk, and legs unto one another.

                Islam

Riches are not from an abundance of worldly goods, but from a contented mind. Whatever good you do for others, you send it before your own soul and shall find it with God, who seest all you do.

                Judaism

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures… he restoreth my soul… Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me… Surely goodness and merry shall follow me all the days of my life; and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Just a few examples of how every religion talks about how we are eternal spirits and live on after a physical death. It is not proof but if you believe that what you believe is the truth than it is a form of proof. Now the question is “do you believe the truth?” it’s been writing right under our noses. The fact is we live this life every day; we are living proof that we shape our lives, we are live truth. Doesn't what we do today and right now have a direct effect on what happens tomorrow? Isn't it true that what we experienced yesterday has a direct effect on how we act today? Don’t we use experience to handle life in the present? I don’t have the answers and I don’t have it all figured out, but they say the first step to solving a problem is realizing that you have a problem, and lets be truthful there is a problem with our lives and how we live and the way this world operates and if we never come to the realization that this is true than we will never fix it. I’m tired of living like this, and I don’t have to ask you because I know you are too. I see it all around, it’s one thing to be optimistic and have faith and it’s another thing to actually be happy and live in real love and truth. All we have is right now, the future is a story and the past is one as well, what matters is right now, because what we do right now and what we believe right now is what we will become. We are what we think, let’s think love, peace, harmony, oneness, empowerment and then use what we think to motivate our actions into making a place where love, peace, harmony, oneness and empowerment are the only things that matters.

Just Breath, Be Brave, and have No Regrets

sunsets

Happy February!! My favorite month, let’s see you have black history month, my birthday and a host of Aquarius birthdays, Valentine’s day not to mention a couple of my favorite Pisces  are born in February. I’ve decided to start my resolutions this month, I always use January as a buffer zone or a transitional phrase, or a trial run to see if I like and/or can actually do the resolution. Most of them are really goals and not really resolutions, I just want to maximize my success. Another thing I’ve decided to do with my goals this year is to write them in a form of achievements, as if it was January 1, 2014 and I was looking back at 2013 and all that I’ve done that year. I don’t know if it will work but if I think about it as already done and achieved than isn’t that the same as willing it done?, Law of Attraction, it’s also in the bible so I figured it couldn’t hurt. So with all that being said I guess you imagined that this post was going to be about my resolutions?  Or maybe black history month?  I’m actually writing about something different and maybe my theme of this year, which I think will be “No regrets”. Which I rarely ever have them but sometimes I hold back when I know I can go harder. So this year I won’t regret any choices I make, I’ve decided to listen to my heart and be brave. Sometimes in life when we’re faced with a decision we’re overwhelmed and a bit anxious, I know I do. I’ve had a panic attack or two in my time. I just know that if I go by the track record of my life no matter what I’m faced with at the time, no matter what obstacle I’ll have to get over everything will be just fine just like it always has been. I remember one time I was going to get an i.d. made because my license had been suspended. I went through the whole process of filling out the paper work and smiling for my picture and they actually printed my I.D. out. Right before the guy was about to give me my i.d. he stopped and said that the big guy in charge wanted to see me. I really didn’t think anything about it, silly me. I foolishly went to the back of the building (which was packed with police officer) into this guy’s office. When I entered he was on the phone and just pointed for me to sit down. I sat down and the guy who escorted me left and shut the door behind him, still not thinking anything about it I’m just sitting there twiddling my thumbs. He put the phone on speaker phone and when someone answered he told them that they had someone down here and they need to send a county car because he has a warrant for an unpaid ticket. Oh hell, now I’m sweating, mind going a million miles an hour trying to figure out what ticket and how much it was and how the hell am I going to get out of here. My first instinct was to talk, so I started talking and asking a bunch of questions and he wasn’t budging. The only thing that was saving me some time was they didn’t have any squad cars to come get me. So he started asking me question. Questions I didn’t want to answer like; “is someone with you?”, and “how did you get here?”, and “did you know you had a warrant?”. After answering the questions; “No nobody is with me”, “I drove my car it’s outside”, and ”No I didn’t know I had a warrant” he asked me if my license were suspended why the hell was I driving? I didn’t have an answer to give him. He just shook his head and call the county jail again. He told me the ticket was some 200 dollars. I pulled out a wad of cash and was like” look, I have it right here” (I can’t remember why I had all the money on me but I was making moves that day)”Just let me go and I’ll go pay it “this dude was not budging one bit. All I was thinking was I got to get the fuck out of here. I’m thinking up all kind of scenarios, what if I just walk up out of here? How many police did I see on the way coming back here? How many could I fight off and get to the door? Could I make it to my car? How far would I make it out of the parking lot? Will I be on the news tonight? I was looking at the windows like “can I break through that?” I was just canceling all those ideas and was thinking “naw I’m not going to jail, something is about to happen, I can’t go to jail today I got other things to do” all of a sudden it was like the heavens opened and he looked at me and was like “you can go”. I was like “What the fuck?”. He said they aren’t sending anyone to come get you and we don’t have anyone here to take you so just go but you can’t have your i.d., I tried to run up out of there before he changed his mind. He walked with me to the front door and a squad car pulled up and this police officer stepped out and said “Ya’ll called and said ya’ll needed me to take someone to jail” and I stopped walking and looked at him and head guy looked at me and told the police officer “naw”. He let me get in my truck with no license and a warrant and I drive off. I went and paid that ticket, and that’s an example in my life that I know everything will be alright. That wasn’t the first or the last time something like that has happened to me. Over and over again I’ve been in sticky situations and I’ve made it out just fine. I’m very thankful that I didn’t go to jail that day and every other time I didn’t go to jail or didn’t get a ticket, or didn’t get caught, or didn’t die, I’ve done some very foolish things in my life and time after time I’ve gotten second chances so I know everything will be just fine. So when you find yourself in a situation where it doesn’t seem like there’s a way out just stay calm and breathe, be brave and know that everything will be all good. Just believe.