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Happy February!! My favorite month, let’s see you have black
history month, my birthday and a host of Aquarius birthdays, Valentine’s day
not to mention a couple of my favorite Pisces are born in February. I’ve decided to start my
resolutions this month, I always use January as a buffer zone or a transitional
phrase, or a trial run to see if I like and/or can actually do the resolution. Most
of them are really goals and not really resolutions, I just want to maximize my
success. Another thing I’ve decided to do with my goals this year is to write
them in a form of achievements, as if it was January 1, 2014 and I was looking
back at 2013 and all that I’ve done that year. I don’t know if it will work but
if I think about it as already done and achieved than isn’t that the same as
willing it done?, Law of Attraction, it’s also in the bible so I figured it
couldn’t hurt. So with all that being said I guess you imagined that this post
was going to be about my resolutions? Or
maybe black history month? I’m actually
writing about something different and maybe my theme of this year, which I think
will be “No regrets”. Which I rarely ever have them but sometimes I hold back
when I know I can go harder. So this year I won’t regret any choices I make, I’ve
decided to listen to my heart and be brave. Sometimes in life when we’re faced
with a decision we’re overwhelmed and a bit anxious, I know I do. I’ve had a
panic attack or two in my time. I just know that if I go by the track record of
my life no matter what I’m faced with at the time, no matter what obstacle I’ll
have to get over everything will be just fine just like it always has been. I remember
one time I was going to get an i.d. made because my license had been suspended.
I went through the whole process of filling out the paper work and smiling for
my picture and they actually printed my I.D. out. Right before the guy was
about to give me my i.d. he stopped and said that the big guy in charge wanted
to see me. I really didn’t think anything about it, silly me. I foolishly went
to the back of the building (which was packed with police officer) into this guy’s
office. When I entered he was on the phone and just pointed for me to sit down.
I sat down and the guy who escorted me left and shut the door behind him, still
not thinking anything about it I’m just sitting there twiddling my thumbs. He put
the phone on speaker phone and when someone answered he told them that they had
someone down here and they need to send a county car because he has a warrant
for an unpaid ticket. Oh hell, now I’m sweating, mind going a million miles an
hour trying to figure out what ticket and how much it was and how the hell am I
going to get out of here. My first instinct was to talk, so I started talking
and asking a bunch of questions and he wasn’t budging. The only thing that was
saving me some time was they didn’t have any squad cars to come get me. So he
started asking me question. Questions I didn’t want to answer like; “is someone
with you?”, and “how did you get here?”, and “did you know you had a warrant?”.
After answering the questions; “No nobody is with me”, “I drove my car it’s
outside”, and ”No I didn’t know I had a warrant” he asked me if my license were
suspended why the hell was I driving? I didn’t have an answer to give him. He
just shook his head and call the county jail again. He told me the ticket was
some 200 dollars. I pulled out a wad of cash and was like” look, I have it
right here” (I can’t remember why I had all the money on me but I was making
moves that day)”Just let me go and I’ll go pay it “this dude was not budging
one bit. All I was thinking was I got to get the fuck out of here. I’m thinking
up all kind of scenarios, what if I just walk up out of here? How many police
did I see on the way coming back here? How many could I fight off and get to
the door? Could I make it to my car? How far would I make it out of the parking
lot? Will I be on the news tonight? I was looking at the windows like “can I break
through that?” I was just canceling all those ideas and was thinking “naw I’m
not going to jail, something is about to happen, I can’t go to jail today I got
other things to do” all of a sudden it was like the heavens opened and he
looked at me and was like “you can go”. I was like “What the fuck?”. He said
they aren’t sending anyone to come get you and we don’t have anyone here to
take you so just go but you can’t have your i.d., I tried to run up out of
there before he changed his mind. He walked with me to the front door and a
squad car pulled up and this police officer stepped out and said “Ya’ll called
and said ya’ll needed me to take someone to jail” and I stopped walking and
looked at him and head guy looked at me and told the police officer “naw”. He let
me get in my truck with no license and a warrant and I drive off. I went and
paid that ticket, and that’s an example in my life that I know everything will
be alright. That wasn’t the first or the last time something like that has
happened to me. Over and over again I’ve been in sticky situations and I’ve
made it out just fine. I’m very thankful that I didn’t go to jail that day and
every other time I didn’t go to jail or didn’t get a ticket, or didn’t get
caught, or didn’t die, I’ve done some very foolish things in my life and time
after time I’ve gotten second chances so I know everything will be just fine. So
when you find yourself in a situation where it doesn’t seem like there’s a way
out just stay calm and breathe, be brave and know that everything will be all
good. Just believe.
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