This is my stance on everything religious and spiritual... I have pretty much kept quite for about 3 or 4 years as to what I really believe in. Its not because I wanted to keep it secret its only because I didn't really know where I stood in the scheme of things. I'm more confident now and have a better understanding of my self and the world around me. So now I can clearly or make it clear enough for someone other then myself to understand.
I grow up nothing. As a child we read the bible at home and did not go to church. I asked my mother one time what we were and she said just tell people your Baptist. I wasn't really in to impressing people so I just told people I didn't know and they would be all concerned about my well-being and of course my afterlife. If I didn't know anything though I knew I wasn't a Christian. The ones I had met so far were very hypocritical. It used to bother me when they would tell me not to cuss. But it was okay when they were upset to curse and tell people to go to hell and stuff like that. It really turned me off to even wanting to be a Christian. But I still read the bible and believed the stuff that I read. Back then I didn't really understand religion. It was weird to me that we were suppose to pay the church tiding for our sins and Jesus already died for them...lol that was a joke. But a lot of the operations of the church confused me. And me asking people that went to church the reason as to why they did some of these things. It seemed to me that they didn't know either. I would get answers but they couldn't explain their answers and I asked a couple of pastors and they always had the similar answers... blah blah blah but you should attend church to get a real understanding of things. My reply was always well come pick me up and I'll go... yeah turns out everybody wants you to go to heaven and come to their church unless they have to come and get you. But whatever I still pushed on.
I didn't start attending any type of service regularly until my second semester in college. Even though I hadn't be to church regularly ever. people were always surprised at what I actually know about the bible and they stuff they believed in. Religion always interests me. Because like I said before I didn't understand and I definitely didn't understand why the operations were true... for example purgatory... from my understanding in the catholic faith... when you died and you don't go to heaven you go to purgatory and you family prays and pays money to get you out and then you go to heaven... now I'm sure I'm not 100% right about this. But from that understanding nobody goes to hell?? Am I correct about that? I'd ask you to correct me but I no longer care about the inner workings of that religious faith. I've investigated until I was satisfied. Which brings me to Bible class or the Institute of Divine Metaphysical Research. I was introduced by a friend that I worked with (they actually came and got me). This bible class was not an ordinary bible class. I'm not gonna tell you about it but if you want to know something about here is the website www.idmr.net I'm almost positive that there is a location near you if you ever want to check it out in person. In this bible class I learned a lot of new things like the name of god and the inner workings of the bible. I attended faithfully for several years. I even got a ministers license to teach the class... that's a little known fact about me... I'm absolutely positive that you don't know that about me. I don't tell anybody because when people know they tend to put their morals and better judgment on the way you live your life. But you don't know my struggle so can't feel my hustle...lol how hood of me to say right... lol I know... but yeah so I attended this class regularly and got familiar with the material and gospel. Id say one of the biggest benefits about it was me learning all the scriptures. I was pretty good at naming and relating.
I'm not gonna bash the class or the people that attend/attended. I will say that the leaders in our branch didn't seem to live the thinks they professed to believe. But it doesn't seem like any religion has a well put together clergy without any drama. I guess that's the right word for it. Needless to say I stop attending because I felt as if they were not preaching what I believed anymore. Somewhere they turned and I missed it. I wouldn't say I was on the right path but I believed in what I believed in sincerely and you can ask all the people that knew me at the time. Bible class came before anything. 3 days a week I was in that class for 2 hours each time sometimes more when we had bible study early on Sunday and Saturday class which was 2 hours also. So yeah I lived breathed and eat bible class.
Before I stop attending I came across quantum physic. It pretty much blow my mind with the dept and difficulty to understand exactly what it was. I did minimal research enough to be able to discuss it but not enough to break it down to someone. Quantum physics gave me a lot of questions about what I was taught and what I actually believed to be true. I didn't ask the questions because in the past questions get answered weather you verbalize them or not. The questions I had nobody seemed to be able to even get on that level. I watched movies and documentary about different concepts about life... the secret, ancient aliens, 2012 stuff, outer space stuff, sept. 11 conspiracy stuff amongst other government conspiracies. The illumati ,astrology And looking into some of the earliest civillazations and why they don't exist any more. As well as religions before the ones we know today.
I know your wondering what do all those topics have to do with my faith and what I believe in. Well they all have something to do with the past. And I believe that we live in cycles. And that its okay to see what happened in the past too prepare for the future. Just don't dwell on the past.
Okay with saying all that I'll tell you what I believe in and I'm gonna say it how I say it, because I don't claim to know everything, and I don't expect you to throw away what you believe in to adapted my belief system. I don't criticize anything anyone believes in. Unless is obviously not true. But here it goes.
I don't believe the bible is all truth as it is written. I believe in certain parts. Just because there are accounts of things that happened globally in all cultures. So weather the account is true or not is the real question. But like I said I believe it as an account and not actual history as it is written. After ALL my research I don't believe god as we believe god to be exist. I believe that the accounts of god in the bibles and other writings were actual beings. Maybe aliens or people from the future or whatever. Just not God in the sense that he made everything and he knows all our thoughts and all we have to do is believe in him to be blessed or go to heaven. I don't believe in heaven or hell which means I don't believe in right or wrong. I don't think it matters what you do on this earth. Which doesn't make me wanna do bad things it just makes me not want to turn the other cheek as far as payback or revenge goes. I do believe in good and evil. I don't know what happens when you die. I believe in souls, I don't know if they're really eternal. I don't if reincarnation is what happens. I don't know what happens when we die nor do I have a concept. I believe in this whole big universe we are not alone. I believe the earth is older then we think and the ancient people were a lot smarter then we think they were. I mean they built the pyramids. And to tell you the truth that's not the most amazing thing they did. I think I covered all my belief system. I'm not a atheist because I don't even believe in the concept of an all knowing being. I do believe that we should be way more in touch with what's going on in the universe. I think that's it. If you have any question feel free to ask i'd love to discuss our beliefs
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