S2: The Virtues of Patients

I just don't know how much patients I'm supposed to have. What else am I supposed to learn? What else am I supposed to go through? How long am I supposed to wait? Its like I have two things driving me. one is telling me "Fuck it just settle" and the other one is saying "just be patient its coming". I'm like "damn its been coming forever when is it gonna get here?". What other "rings of fire" do I have to jump though? At this point can I just jump through them already? I mean really my life has got to be waiting on me too. It's just gotta be there. I see it but its like only a glimpse of what it is. I want it. I want it now!!