Sometimes I wonder about love. You know the usual. What is love? Does it really exist? How do I know when I'm in love? What's the timeline for the possibility of someone being in love? Well some of that concerns me. I believe in love because of having felt it towards me and I've felt it towards other people. I don't know how much I believe the idea of a soul mate but I do believe there is someone out there for everyone. Only one person? Maybe not. But definitely someONE. The real question that plagues me is, when do you know you’re really in love? (Funny how they just made a movie about this subject called "How Do You Know". Which is a great movie by the way). I believe in love at first sight. I mean REAL LOVE at first sight. I don't believe you have to know someone a million years to fall in love or be in love with them. Which I've been told is a difference. It has to do with "Like". Maybe I’ll explain it later its actually a really good explanation. Is there an actual measurement for love? Or do we just know it when we feel it. I can say I've been in love at least 3 times. And not that mother/sister love. I'm talking about that love that makes your pressure go up when you see this person. That “I don't even wanna talk” love. That “let's just be with each other tonight” love.
Well the love I felt for these girls were different and none lasted, technically love was never really given a chance. But none the less they ended one way or another. So does that mean that what I felt was a lie? Or does it mean that I was actually in love with something new and improved? Because really that’s part of the attraction. Of course your gonna be attracted to anything that's not like the last encounter. But all this really has nothing to do with, if you know you’re in love. The reason I'm even bringing this subject up is because, I had a dream about this girl that I never met in real life. We've talked a couple of time but nothing to exclusive. We don't even live in the same city. She's a real sweetheart though. I try not to idolize her because she is a very interesting person. Absolutely my type in the literal sense. But she just a girl. I don't usually dream about people I don't really know... matter of fact one of her sisters was in it to. Really crazy. Really really crazy. Even though I did enjoy it. Anyway my question to myself and not to you is does this me I'm in love with her? Because I know I definitely love the thought of her in the prototype sense. I've always lived by an “if you don't ask you'll never know.” Type of mentality. I mean all they can do is say “yes” or “no”. And if its “no” than you can go back to what you were doing anyway right?. The pressure really comes from the “yes”. If they say “yes” then now you have to really put in work. Actually make an effort. But that is for another time. Am I in love is the question and if I am, what am I prepare to do? Because in my head "Love " is worth fighting for. I need to ponder this some more... I'll get back to you on that note.
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